*Monday, July 06, 2009 *♥

ii lied .
now ii'm paying the prize :
ii lost you .
never in my dreams would ii have dreamt that ii would lose you .
its my fault .
ii'm scared .
Really .
really really scared of commitment .
ii dunno how to love again .
the problem doesnt lie with you .
its me .
ii've moved on .
ii dont need him anymore .
ii need you .
but ii cant get over the phobia of getting hurt again .
maybe the 1 year of single life really got to me .
ii really want you .
but ii'm scared you would hurt me , or ii would hurt you .
ii keep thinking of you .
but we're sooo sooo sooo different .
you're not gonna change for me ii cant change for you .
cause ii changed for the person ii love and got fcuking burnt .
and now ii ask ,
for what ?
why did ii even change for him ?
cause ii was madly in love with him ?
yeah so what ?
ii ran away for him , ii fought with everyone for him .
ii gave up friends for him .
and all ii have now is shit in my face .
ii should have listened to my mum when she said ii was too young .
puppy love as they say .
but ii know its not .
ii dunwan a repeat of a heartache .
thats why ii admit ,
ii'm not scared .
ii'm terrified , petrified even .
its me .
its not you .
ii like you , ii really do .
but ii dont know how to love you .
if ii could , ii would .
but ii dont know how to .
ii dont know how to give someone my heart now .
what if you crush it ?
are you gonna take responsibility for it ?
Or are you just gonna hide and run ?
or what if ii break your heart ?
no one wants that kind of responsibility .
the question now is ,

Love me or hate me , ii dun really give a shit . Hate me , just close the freaking window . No one asked you to come here in the first place . And you better not freaking spam me ! Other than that , WELCOME(:

♥Avlyn;Alice;
Antoinette♥

♥avlyn athalia-ann
16 FEBRUARY 1993
16
woodgrove pri
FUCHUN sec

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