*Thursday, May 31, 2007 *♥

yer know wat sis ?
ii just read yer blogg .
like wtf ?
ii wasnt crying till yer let me go .
ii was crying cause ii felt sorry fer myself .
and wat yer did cause yer hate me soo much .
yer NEVER cared fer me .
all yer cared about was yer FWENS FWENS FWENS .
ii ALWAYS placed my family first .
and wat did ii always get in return ?
SHIT SHIT AND MORE SHIT .
soo why do yer thinkk ii stopped putting family first ?
ii get enough of shit outside and when ii come home wat do ii get ?
all yer ever cared about was seeing me sad angry or doing smt wrong which yer could laugh at .
when did yer ever treat me as yer younger sister and when did yer ever care fer me ?
yer just wanted to see me in trouble dun yer ?
go tell mummy all .
like wtf can ?
ii ALWAYS helped yer and sean to hide stuffs .
yes , ii admit ii used it to threaten you ppl .
but did ii ever have the means to do it ?
never alright .
and why didnt ii do it ?
cause ii never wanted to see yer sad or angry withh mummy or daddy .
soo ii never said a word about it to them .
and wat do yer do now ?
telling them ii left the house at 3am all .
like wtf ?
ii will really leave one day and NEVER ever return home .
cause wat do ii get when ii do ?
shit larr .
and why should ii put up withh all yer shit ?
and why did ii always put YOU guys first even before MYSELF ?
cause ii loved yer ppl as my family .
ii treasured yer .
ii always gave in too you .
and obviously ii wished yer could return me some love .
am ii asking too much from my family ?
its alright if some fwens dun understand me or wateva .
but my own family should be giving me support and NOT pulling me down .
but yer ppl pull me down instead of giving me the support ii need .
soo obviously ii turn to my fwens right ?
ii am not some strong woman alrights .
when it comes to occasions and all , do ii ask yer fer anything ?
yer go around buying fer yer fwens and all .
when it comes to me ?
stingy like shit right ?
when it came to sean's bday , yer gave him smt .
did yer give me anything in my 14 years ?
and when ii gave yer anything , wat would happen to it ?
chuck it somewhere and never find it and leave it there right ?
ii always wanted to have a sistarr to look up too !
look at michelle and maria , ii always wished ii had a sistarr to do that okayes ?
yer can take my clothes and all .
when ii toook yers ?
yer'll scream like ii tore it into half and all .
like wtf ?
yer dun care about how ii feeel do yer ?
all yer care is about yer fwens and everyone else except me .
let me ask yer something .
wat the fcuk did ii ever do to you ?
just tell me the god damn problem alright .
ii know ii had to right to leave the house .
and yes , ii was in the wrong .
but ii actually did it out in spite too .
ii wanted to see if yer would help me .
sigh , ii finally got the answer yeah ?
my sistarr hates me .
she loves everyone else except me .
sigh , wat a difficult thing to swallow .
gosh , and all the older bullshit and all ?
HA !
if yer really wanna be my older sistarr , start acting like one alright ?
or we'll just be fwens .
ii wun ever talk to yer or ask fer yer help ever again .
cause ii dunwan to let myself down .
whenever yer say smt bad about me .
do yer know ii cry about it ?
ii am that sensitive fer wat yer prospective of me is .
gosh .
wat an idiot ii have been .
thinking my older sis would be there fer me .
gosh .
ii mean really , wat a BIG BIG BIG mistake .
and ii trusted yer back time and time again .
only to get the same shit later on .
WHY WHY WHY ?!
ii ask myself .
why do ii always forgive you ?
and ii guess god wants me to forgive my elder sis whom ii love and all .
HA !
god really knows how to make me look like a fool .
ii really carn stand this anymore .
ii need to explode soon .
or ii'll die inside .
gosh .

dear !
today our 1 year anniversay worr .
sooo happy (:
miss yer like crazy larr now .
stupid phone had to get cut .
ii am sorry ya ?
ii love ya loads and loads .

got dance practice later .
ii cant give up even though ii wan too .
gosh .
or my sistarrhood will be disappointed .
which ii NEVER wanna see .
cause yer ppl mean the WORLD to me .
gian , sistarrhoood , nana , dave && leslie .
gosh .
ii'll just die if something would happen to ANY of you .
ii love ya ppl LOADS && LOADS .

and why do ii keep finding out ppl are starting to smoke or started ?
gosh larr .
DUN smoke .
all of yer QUIT NOW NOW NOW .
ii dun care .
yer better QUIT .
dunwan yer ppl to die .
ii rather die lorr .
yeaps .
anyways .
my eyes damn itchy now .
turning red le .
pain like shit larr .
gtg .
bye and loves !!!

class ppl ! haahhas . stupid potato wanna run away .
LOSER !!

xu man jasling foon yee and yinmin .

raja and skateboard .

fauzi .

adam and fauzi .

adam me and fauzi .

adam and me .

rahman and adam .

aniq , azmi , nicky and sulami .

sulami look where seh !?

sulami and me (ii look weird)

sulami and me again .


aniq take ma camera and take of himself only !


aniq and adam .


adam step only again !

adam and raja climb tree .

adam step only !

** ii said ii'll upload it soo ii did .
haix .
just had a terrible nightmare .
aint feeling good ):

SUNGEI BULOH TRIP .
ii shall upload class BBQ wans later .
ii gotta go sleeeep .
tired .
wish the REJECTS luck fer tomorrow's performance !!!


azmi and me !

ashikin and saidun .

rahman emo seh .

them again .

ashley and romeoo .

saidun ashikin and sharmeet .



weilin rahman and me again .

rahman and weilin .

me and weilin , AGAIN .

me and weilin again .

me and weilin .

rahman and me 2 .

rahman and me .

azliana sonam me and half of ameira .

azliana and me (burps !)

sonam sonam !

weilin and van .

me rahman and azmi .

weilin && me (:

the girls again .

vanessa , ameira , weilin && ME !

hahas . pose only !

rahman !!

candid me 2

candid me .

crabby .

muddskipper .

rahman azmi abit of fauzi and our tour guide .

monitor lizard .

WEEE !
ii'm back from children's ministry chalet . (fri-sun)
WOOOOT !
it was nice nice nice .
but ii lost my eeyore pouch ): !
maria lost it when we got there .
sad !
ii really loved that pouch .
ez link card , this fashion card , mirror , pictures and cash all GONE ! ):
ohh well .
we went fer cat class on sat .
then we sang the *keep holding on* - *the meaning*
MINUS 1 !
all thanks to my fat brother - sean !
THANKS .
hahahas .

OHH YEAH .
father terence and my parents had a talk .
gosh .
ii am sooo freaking dead .
cause father talked to my DAD .
not MUM .
ouch .
err .
why why why ?!
stupid wildboar had to come and interupt every farking thing .
BYOTCH .
URGHH .
ii sooo farking HATE WILDBOAR .
ii'm sorry larr gian but ii do .
yeaps .
and ii found out ppl who smoke .
horhor .
ahhahas .
nonsensical .
and wat we talked and did at the chalet .
leave it in the chalet .
ahhahas !
maria , michelle , desiree , geneva , celine and ME !
yeaps .
hahas .
charles spoke to maria too .
it spoiled her whole mood of the chalet .
haix .
sooo sad right .
yeaps .
anyways .
going home to get scolded sooooon .
may not blog after that .
currently in school .
if my dad hits me , ii am going out .
SORRY .

that time me and menglee eat at lot 1 de .
YUCKS .

YUCKS .

YUCKS !

YUCKS YUCKS !

totally waste of money !
YUCKS !
only the drinks were worth it .
30cents each .


yesterday accidentally throw something at dear balls .
OOOPS ):
soo sorry my dear !
hahas !
din meet dear today .
hahas .
dave is still farked up .
HAIX .
wats wrong larr !
went to eat beancurd withh pamela and menglee just now .
yeapps .
then dear kena caught fer smoking by police .
bloody idiot .
then must go court all .
URGHH !
then got canning also .
haix .
feeling soo hurt .
hahas .
then jiu go sembawang park withh pereras .
ahahs .
went there eat macs abit jiu go toilet le go play playground .
hahahs .
sooo fun (: !
we were like sliding the slides and swinging in the swings .
like duh ?
HAHHAS .
yeahs .
ii need to de-stress .
ahhas .
anyone would like to help ?
PLS DO !
yeaps .
and ii gonna quit smoking le .
YAY (:

Love me or hate me , ii dun really give a shit . Hate me , just close the freaking window . No one asked you to come here in the first place . And you better not freaking spam me ! Other than that , WELCOME(:

♥Avlyn;Alice;
Antoinette♥

♥avlyn athalia-ann
16 FEBRUARY 1993
16
woodgrove pri
FUCHUN sec

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