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*Thursday, May 31, 2007 *♥

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yer know wat sis ?
ii just read yer blogg .
like wtf ?
ii wasnt crying till yer let me go .
ii was crying cause ii felt sorry fer myself .
and wat yer did cause yer hate me soo much .
yer NEVER cared fer me .
all yer cared about was yer FWENS FWENS FWENS .
ii ALWAYS placed my family first .
and wat did ii always get in return ?
SHIT SHIT AND MORE SHIT .
soo why do yer thinkk ii stopped putting family first ?
ii get enough of shit outside and when ii come home wat do ii get ?
all yer ever cared about was seeing me sad angry or doing smt wrong which yer could laugh at .
when did yer ever treat me as yer younger sister and when did yer ever care fer me ?
yer just wanted to see me in trouble dun yer ?
go tell mummy all .
like wtf can ?
ii ALWAYS helped yer and sean to hide stuffs .
yes , ii admit ii used it to threaten you ppl .
but did ii ever have the means to do it ?
never alright .
and why didnt ii do it ?
cause ii never wanted to see yer sad or angry withh mummy or daddy .
soo ii never said a word about it to them .
and wat do yer do now ?
telling them ii left the house at 3am all .
like wtf ?
ii will really leave one day and NEVER ever return home .
cause wat do ii get when ii do ?
shit larr .
and why should ii put up withh all yer shit ?
and why did ii always put YOU guys first even before MYSELF ?
cause ii loved yer ppl as my family .
ii treasured yer .
ii always gave in too you .
and obviously ii wished yer could return me some love .
am ii asking too much from my family ?
its alright if some fwens dun understand me or wateva .
but my own family should be giving me support and NOT pulling me down .
but yer ppl pull me down instead of giving me the support ii need .
soo obviously ii turn to my fwens right ?
ii am not some strong woman alrights .
when it comes to occasions and all , do ii ask yer fer anything ?
yer go around buying fer yer fwens and all .
when it comes to me ?
stingy like shit right ?
when it came to sean's bday , yer gave him smt .
did yer give me anything in my 14 years ?
and when ii gave yer anything , wat would happen to it ?
chuck it somewhere and never find it and leave it there right ?
ii always wanted to have a sistarr to look up too !
look at michelle and maria , ii always wished ii had a sistarr to do that okayes ?
yer can take my clothes and all .
when ii toook yers ?
yer'll scream like ii tore it into half and all .
like wtf ?
yer dun care about how ii feeel do yer ?
all yer care is about yer fwens and everyone else except me .
let me ask yer something .
wat the fcuk did ii ever do to you ?
just tell me the god damn problem alright .
ii know ii had to right to leave the house .
and yes , ii was in the wrong .
but ii actually did it out in spite too .
ii wanted to see if yer would help me .
sigh , ii finally got the answer yeah ?
my sistarr hates me .
she loves everyone else except me .
sigh , wat a difficult thing to swallow .
gosh , and all the older bullshit and all ?
HA !
if yer really wanna be my older sistarr , start acting like one alright ?
or we'll just be fwens .
ii wun ever talk to yer or ask fer yer help ever again .
cause ii dunwan to let myself down .
whenever yer say smt bad about me .
do yer know ii cry about it ?
ii am that sensitive fer wat yer prospective of me is .
gosh .
wat an idiot ii have been .
thinking my older sis would be there fer me .
gosh .
ii mean really , wat a BIG BIG BIG mistake .
and ii trusted yer back time and time again .
only to get the same shit later on .
WHY WHY WHY ?!
ii ask myself .
why do ii always forgive you ?
and ii guess god wants me to forgive my elder sis whom ii love and all .
HA !
god really knows how to make me look like a fool .
ii really carn stand this anymore .
ii need to explode soon .
or ii'll die inside .
gosh .

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