*Wednesday, October 28, 2009 *♥

Omg ,
2 days working in Zoo-Kidz World damn funny .
Both time ii punched in my card was like 11:11 !
HAHAA .
How coooool is thaaat uhhh .
Hahahha .
Today ii worked with Tobias and Linda .
One my ahbang , one my kakkak .
Linda damn nice siaaa !
Hahahha .
Anyways , its quite interesting working there laa .
That day air-con break down really damn hot .
Today air-con on damn blooody cold !
HAHAHA .
Anyways , ii miss my school people siaa !
Miss all the stupid-ness and all .
Hhahaha .
Oh well .

OH OH .
Yesterday damn bloody fucking drama--.--
ahahha .
Tsk tsk .
II MISS ALOT OF PEOPLE
AND II KEEP HAVING WEIRD DREAMS .
ITS ANNOYING.

What you all did to me is really damn too much .
ii would NEVER leave you people alone .
Tsk .
All those years and this is what we get in return ?
Just a simple motherfucking small misunderstanding and things turn out this way .
Tsk .
ii never knew things would turn out this way .
ALL turn their backs on me .
Ahh fuck it ,
ii've got tooooo bloody fucking much of other problems to go through this .
Really ,
you all broke my heart .
Almost 6 over years of knowing one another and this is what actually happens .
FUCK LAARH .
Is this is how you all want it ,
there's nothing more ii can say .

PS : Thanks to Fauzi and Ashaari !
Sooo sooo much .

ii lied .
now ii'm paying the prize :
ii lost you .
never in my dreams would ii have dreamt that ii would lose you .
its my fault .
ii'm scared .
Really .
really really scared of commitment .
ii dunno how to love again .
the problem doesnt lie with you .
its me .
ii've moved on .
ii dont need him anymore .
ii need you .
but ii cant get over the phobia of getting hurt again .
maybe the 1 year of single life really got to me .
ii really want you .
but ii'm scared you would hurt me , or ii would hurt you .
ii keep thinking of you .
but we're sooo sooo sooo different .
you're not gonna change for me ii cant change for you .
cause ii changed for the person ii love and got fcuking burnt .
and now ii ask ,
for what ?
why did ii even change for him ?
cause ii was madly in love with him ?
yeah so what ?
ii ran away for him , ii fought with everyone for him .
ii gave up friends for him .
and all ii have now is shit in my face .
ii should have listened to my mum when she said ii was too young .
puppy love as they say .
but ii know its not .
ii dunwan a repeat of a heartache .
thats why ii admit ,
ii'm not scared .
ii'm terrified , petrified even .
its me .
its not you .
ii like you , ii really do .
but ii dont know how to love you .
if ii could , ii would .
but ii dont know how to .
ii dont know how to give someone my heart now .
what if you crush it ?
are you gonna take responsibility for it ?
Or are you just gonna hide and run ?
or what if ii break your heart ?
no one wants that kind of responsibility .
the question now is ,

HEY HEY HEY !
My blog not dead laaa .
Hahahha .
Sooo many people say my blog died !
Okaayy not many , maybe 2 or 3 .
HHAHAA .
Btw ,
damn happy my meimei GERALDINE messsage me lorr .
Get to chat with her (:
Sooooooo nice !
Hahahaha .


Anyways .
Children's Camp is in like 3 or 4 days time .
And we managed to get almost everything done today .
DAMN HAPPPY .
Cause like there were sooo little of us doing it but managed to get it done .
WE GIRLS ROCK !
Hahahaha .
It was sooo fun hanging out with the girls again .
Seriously missed those times ♥
hhahaha .
AHHHH .
This is my schedule for the weeek :

omg ,
ii seriously am missing Kydo now .
ii have nooo idea why .
ii just loved him being here .
really really REALLY LOVED it .
Now he has freaking disappeared .
Haix .
ii feeel lost .
ii wonder why he hasn't contacted anyone .
or at least Me .
Gosh .

Maria is here now at the moment .
Miss her like crap !
We had a good laugh today .
Now both of us busy on the computers .
Hahaha .
ii am soooo supposed to be studying for my papers tomorrow laa !
Hhahaha .

Maths paper 2 and Social Studies !
Rabak sia .
Hahah .
Nurul asked me to go some Bbq they making all .
Hahhaa .
Soo nice of her !
(:

Oh oh ,
by the way !
Sylvia wants me to pierce her belly for her .
Hahaha .
scared sial !
(:

Awesome !
Yesterday ii went to watch my first NC16 movie !!
HAHA .
Went with Sharon & Steph !
Hahahahh .
Yayyyyy .
Finally 16 now cant wait to be legal :D
Hahaha .
Went to dom's place again today .
Gosh ,
seriously miss those asses laa !
Hahahha !
Well , ii am off to watch csi !
:)

Hey everyone .
ii wun be blogging for sometime first .
ii gotta sort my life out .
And the misunderstandings of everything that has happened .

AHHH !
DISNEY ON ICE ROCKKKKSSSS !
Hahahha .
ii love it laa .
the way they skate ,
OMFG !
ii like some small kid clapping my hand all laaa !
hahahahha .
Damn bloody graceful sial they all .
WALAAOOO .
Hahahhaa .
ii wanna go ice skating now !
HAHAHA .

Booo .
Drinking AGAIN sooon .
Gossshhh .
Gonna get beeer belly .
YUCK .
Haahhaha .
Btw,
G to the Q and sivan all okay le .
Soo happy .
But ii also not gonna go hall le .
SIAN .
Soo damn fcuking sway laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Got fcuking school again tomorrow .
DAMN !
No holiday also .
II MISSSSS PEOPLE !
):

Btw ,
ii aint so fcuking dumb to understand you making fun of me .
Say what you wat honeyh .
ii MOVED on .
(:

Anyways ,
recently met Sivan and his fwens .
Bunch of interesting people .
Hahaha .

Lavin!

Lavin & Ryan !

Ryan Lavin & Myself♥



are people ii have known for many years .
Though we may all not be THAT close ,
we someone love each other's company .
Hahahha .
Cheeers to more outings (:
♥

Hafiz & Farhan ♥♥♥

Pamela & Avlyn ♥♥♥♥♥
Sisters since p4 !
7 years ?

Advertising !

Ashley♥Pamela
Ashaari♥Avlyn !
HAHAHAH !

(:

We were all crazy over pictures !

My gosh !
Main road outside school !

Embarrassing !
Running to pose end up FALLING !
My gosh !

Awesommmeeee ♥

The first night class !
♥

Maria♥

Mariaaa♥

Avlyn♥

Avlyn step cool♥

My Family(:♥

Aunty Jovina ♥ Uncle Ah Leong!
♥Boyboyy♥

Girls♥

Girls part 2♥

Girls part 3 ♥

Stupid random shot.

Boys♥

Boys part 2 ♥

Thanks for the memories♥

The Gang♥

Being the lazyy meee !
♥♥♥

You're not sorry.

Ahhh .
Cross country was kinda fun !
Especially after running all taking pictures .
And during the giving out of prizes .
Sadly ameythst din win .
but what the heck ,
WE'LL BE BACK NEXT YEAR !
Hahaha .
It was fun .
But not for pamela .
Poooor girl .
some fucker pushed her at the beginning already laaa !
Her cuts ahh ,
wahh ,
can feel the pain for her !
Hahahhaa .
:D

Children's camp 08'

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
CHILDREN'S CAMP ROCKKKKSSSSS !
Hahahhaa .
Efffing happy okaayyy !
BUT Benjamin and Bertilla ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
Gooooodnessss .
Sooo effing horrible laaa .
HAHA .
Mattieu was okay ii think .
HAHHAA .
ii think thats how his name is spelt .
HAHA .
Ohoh .
Bertilla hates me and gabriel !
HAHAHAA .
Sooo horrible .
ii really pity Felicitas !
GOOODNESS .
She cant get away from Bertilla even for ONE SECOND !
ii would HATE my sister if she did that to me .
And ii think she hates me cuase ii used to do that toooo .
HAHAHA .
Sooooo funny .
Alamakk .
Hopefully we have a camera tomorrrow !
Hehehe (:
Neeed to go rest now .
Tomorrow Night Walk !
Goooodnesss .
Gonnnnnnna die laaa !
HAHAH (:

♥

♥

♥

1) No man is rich enough to buy his past
2) Everyone thinks of changing the world BUT no one thinks of changing himself
3) Never break 4 things in life
a) Trust
b) Promise
c) Relationship
d) Heart
Because when they break they dun make noise but hurt a lot
4) In a day , when you dun come across any problems you can be sure that you're travelling in a wrong path
5) If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life , it means they had never tried a new thing in their life .

ii miss you ♥

ii miss you ♥

ii miss you ♥

Ahhh .
ii totally had soo much to blog about .
but this particular thing is super hilarious .
LOOK DOWN .

http://ggoodbyekisses.livejournal.com/
28 November 2008 :
You're annoying. i don't care if you dont like what i type on my blog. so what if i bitch about you on my lj? At least i'm nice enough not t leave your name there. DUH! you're not happy, i'm not happy. so we're equal. I'm not gonna let this slide, i've had enough of your nonsense. If it's gonna end, it better end by tomorrow. you're damn hard t reason with and i hate that!

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GO AWAY LA *@(#)&*$^@)*($&)@#_)!#(&_@*$&@#*(^@_(*@$&@(#)@$&@*(&$%@^&%make me angry only. bitch


21 November 2008 :
A
What you did yesterday was totally unexpected of you, you knew how much it would embarras me but you still went ahead and did it, you dont care how people feel. You say you dont hate me, you just dislike me, i ask you why, you say cause i love th boy who USED TO love you and used to be together with you. But you cant change fate, if he does'nt love you th way he used to, well, there's nothing you can do t change that, i know how much you're hurting but i think it's time you should move on though it's hard.

she is loving him still, for the rest of her life,
she is loving him still, for the last of many miles,
she is loving him still, after all this time.

I think you should start t think this through. I have nothing more t say t you.

Phew !
what a freaking tiring day man !
slept at like 6 am then woke up at 12 .
then helped to clean the house all .
then went down at 4 for ball room dancing !
HAAHAHAHA .
omg !
ii love my partner - JOSEPH TAY !
AHHH .
he's legs got spasm though .
HAHA .
but he's like sooo nice !
we talked ALOT while dancing laa .
it was kinda nice ehh .
tomorrow there is practice again .
AHHH .
cant wait .
but ii bet my feet can wait .
haha .
freaking dancing for 3 freaking hours in HEEEELS ehh .
damn power pack ahh .
shall take a picture with my darling jojo tomorrow !
haaha .
(:

tulang,me,maya,doshie.

Me and maya.

Doshie,me,tulang,maya.

me.check the fugliness.

Me,maya,kelvin!(Godzilla!)

Me,maya!

Me,mayaaaa!

Maya,kecik,doshie,me,tulang.

Sapi,tulang,me!
ii love this picture!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIAN CARLO NERIE GAMBOA !
and yes ,
ii also know you enjoyed like crap yesterday .
HAHA :D

YAY !
ii cant be any happier !
My best fwens were there my GODBROTHER was there !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
Really sooo effing happpy laaa !

Ohh ohh !
Thurston was sooo effing nice !
He paid for my pizza hut ehh !
Before that he paid for my starbucks (:
hahha .
After pizza we went bowling !
That faggot said he din know how to bowl but he scored sooo damn well !
hahaha !
Ohoh !
He also thought us to do Sheesha !
hahahha !
EFFING FUN .
and people ,
ii really wasnt high !
ii am ALWAYS like that .
FOOLS .
hahaha .

Oh yeah ,
'WE' being myself, desiree, thurston, pereras, jp and lisa, Amelia, Jm, ashley, kristel and gian .

PS : DESIREE , MY ARM STILL HURTS ))):

More pictures to come sooon !
Yay-ness !
Hahah !
Cant wait to meet Thurston this thursday !
YAY :D

Avlyn & Thurston (:

Godpaaaa (:
♥

Ashley Arlando !
BABA*(:

Pilar Camerlita Arlando

This was pictures from thursday .
ii love them:D

Oh baby baby its a wild world

Girls gone wild

Lights will guide us home

♥Avlyn

♥Michelle

♥Maria

♥

Do ya thing !

♥

Wonders♥

Firstly ,
Live band din suck !
well not that much .
hahaha !
It wasnt really our genre of songs and all but WOOO !
ii freaking enjoyed it balls !
ii did the cha-cha and salsa all .
kinda cooool (:
HAHA .

OHOH !
ii met a guy .
hahhaa .
he's not all that but okay laa .
His name is Mark !
ahaha .
okay okay ,
the whole scene went like this :

*Loud music playing*
avlyn - nana : Eh , who is that guy sial ?
avlyn - nana : Ask him who he is and his name all laa .
nana - avlyn : You ask him laa you more daring .
avlyn - the guy : Eh , who are you ?!
guy - avlyn : Who me ?
avlyn - the guy : Yeah ! Who are you ?
guy - avlyn : Oh , my name is Mark .
avlyn - the guy : Oh okays coool !
guy - avlyn : So , wats your name ?
avlyn - guy : Oh , my name is avlyn !
*He shakes my hand with a grin on his face*

HAHA .
am ii just too friendly or wat ?!
hahha .
then ii made him dance with me !
HAHAHHA .
the cha-cha or something .
HAHAHA .
cooooooool right !
hahhaa .
But sadly , ii din get his email .
hahha .
well .
Oh oh ,
btw ,
we were all shouting at each other .
hahaha !

LOVES (:
ps : pictures will be up sooon !

OMFG .
ii simply had the most fabulous day of my life .
a pity doshie wasnt there to enjoy !
Pereras and myself went to clarke quay !
haha .
before that was like the esplanade and all .
omfggg .
we were supposed to go for the Gotham Pent House thingy laa .
but no we din have the money plus the thing was gonna end latee .
oh wait , EARLY ?!
haha .
anyways ,
we were supposed to go home already laa .
but maria wanted a drink .
soo we went to the nearest 7/11 laa .
OMG .
michelle to maria : goodness , look at the amount of underage people here !
*looking around*
then ii was like : OMGOMGOMGOMG .
this is the place !
we were supposed to be in !
it was effing crowded !
ii damn regret NOT going laa .
anyways ,
there will be another party on the 20 November .
Cleomine will like be our supplier of the tickets and all !
DAMN COOL AHHH .
super happy .
pictures are with tuulang .
lets hope she uploads !!

Look ,
ii am so damn happy you got your retribution .
she dumped you eh .
and you planning to wait for her ?
HA !
Karma is hitting you .
not hard yet ii guess .
but you just wait and see .
what goes around comes around .
you did shit to me ,
now ii PRAY she does shit to you .
break your heart of steel and leave you hurt .
for those who dunno wat is going on ,
dun effing judge me or say ii am mean in this post .
if you knew wat he did ,
you would double the mean-ness .
ii am already being pleasant with these words .
whatever the case ,
ii am leaving you behind from now on .
you're soo not worth waiting for .
no doubt you'll always be a part of me .
but its wise of me to finally TRY and move on .
but let me tell you one thing ,
wat we had from the 31 may 06 to 4 may 08 was great .
but yeah ,
you gave it up .
its YOUR lost faggot .
ii got my girls with me .
you dun even TRY and break us up .
break us up , ii will break YOU .
these girls mean everything to me .
you ?
you were just something .
they , are gonna help me forget you .
cause you're just a FWEN to us .
you WERE my life last time .
just not anymore .
ii am just wondering now ,
how the eff did you turn your back on me soo darn fast ?
ii mean ,
dun all those shit we ever went through mean anything to you ?
as in seriously man .
you got no damn conscience man .

you really dissappointed me gian .
ii always thought you could do better .
you're a smart kid .
work at it .
ii dunwan to see you as a total failure aite ?
but do me a favour now ,
go , go forever .

freaking tiring day for me la !
FNN was like 3 effing hours long .
but the food was okay laa .
yeaps .
hmm .

then the girls came over my house for a little meeting .
but after doshie left ,
we kinda finished the meeting .
ii laughed ALOT .
ii needed to laugh .
really .
thanks girls !
though ii was the one making a fool out of myself ,
(as usual) , ii had fun .
II LAUGHED TILL II TEARED .
tsktsk .
girls , only WE know wat happened .
haha .

anyways ,
then bought my memory card from FIZAAAA aka Hafizah .
my babe from primary school .
haha .
for my psp btw .

hmmm .
well .
no mood to freaking blog now .
ii just need a fag .
BADLY .
tsk .

ME , SHERMIT , DIYANA:D
II LOOK WEIRD .

SHERMIT !

haha .
me and my brother had a little fight at Mustafa yesterday .
aahahha

coool ?!

hahaha .

OUCHHH !

it became swollen after awhile .

hahaa .

sorrry bro !

dragged myself to school this morning .
goodness .
how ii dread going to school when its supposed to be a freaking holiday !
goodness .
anyways ,
met gian and lisaaaP ( PEIRERA for goodness sake)
the idiots were playing blooody cards laa .
then was soooo super bored waiting for joshua marc to arrive .
then we saw bradley and his fwen Haikal ?
ahaha .
THE GUY IS EFFING 14 LAA !
he's sooo freaking big sizeddd !
hahaa .
he's not bad looking too !
hahaha .
then we slackked and all .
then ii went to meet my second mother .
follow her go woodgrove ntuc .
then after that called gian asked him where were they .
they went to trevor's house .
then celine was there too .
he has a freaking cute kitten laa !
which obviously gian was scared of .
and soo was lisaP .
hahaha .
damn funny .
then after that slacked moreee .
how boring right ?!
hahha .
then decided to call nicholas michael .
HE PUSSSY .
he damn loser laaa !
even celine he scared sial !
blooody foool.
hahhaa .
the rest of the day was spent disturbing lisaP .
and her UN-STRAIGHT-NESS .
hahhahaha !
effing hilarious ii tell you .

oh oh. then went Casablanka lounge .
TRIED to study with daniel, ashley , gian , joshua marc and myself .
lisaP and bradley was there too .
hahha .
then after a while the rest went back .
so me ashley and daniel went to eattt BOTAK JONES .
hahaha .
then now my freaking money is gone .
how to survive 2 more days with like 10 ?!
DAMN SWAYYY LAAA .
hahaha .
mummy is soo not in singapore .
hahaa .
she went malaysia with HER bestfwens .
Aunty Shanti & Aunty Cynthia .
hahahha .
cool huh ?!
haahha .

PS : on the way back to church ,
me and daniel laughed our ASS-ES OFFF !
hahahaahhahha !



THE GIRLS ARE COMING BACK TOMORROOWWW !
WOOO !
effing happy to core !
ahaha .
YAY !
hahaha .

LESLIE(:

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARIA'S MUMMY !

yesterday , went to maria's house stayover .
SUNNY WAS BEING GROSS .
sunny was HORNY okay !
which was damn gross .
ii ran to maria laaa .
but noo ,
still sunny came to me .
HORRIBLE .
hahaha .
but hilarious .
before that we were supposed to go for Mass .
and we wanted to sit at the loft but noo ,
they din open it .
soo we din go for mass .
then we went American houses for T&T .
AND SERIOUSLY ,
ii salute those who actually bother dressing up !
ii mean if you wanna go for it DRESS UP for goodness sake !
dun wear some hot pants and red jacket and carry the devil's sickel .
its darn ugly and effing stupid !
DRESSSSS UP LAA PLEASE .
unless you're like us ,
suddenly just go only .
AND WE DID NOT T&T .
cause why ?
we did not dress up !
damn blooody irritating laa .
and maria has written everything that makes the end nice .
haahha .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE !
haha .
how you enjoy your day today .
and to the rest :
HAPPPY HALLOWEEEN YO !
ahhaa .
happy trick or treating yaaa ?!
LOADS OF CANDIES .
ahaha .
going for All Soul's Day mass later at 8pm .
mean time ?
SLACK AHH .
haha .
peace out yooo :D

Lepak-ed with ,
Gabriel,Gian,Jeshaiah,Maria,Celine,Me.
then ,
Gabriel,Gian,Jeshaiah,Celine,Me.
then ,
Gabriel,Gian,Jeshaiah,Celine,Me,Joshua Marc.
THEN ,
Gabriel,Gian,Jeshaiah,Celine,Me,Joshua Marc,Joelynn.
HAHA .
WE MADE A FWEN ON THE BUS !
His name is :
ISMAIL ; 14 years old ; Woodlands Secondary ; stay checkpoint :D
HAHAHHAHA .
damn funny !
hahaha .
Anyways ,
The last people remaining were like :
Gabriel,Jeshaiah,Me,
Dominic Fernandez came when me and gab were eating .
haha !
SHARED A BOTAK BURGER WITH GABRIEL .
hahaha .
he ate all the damn onions !
blooody fart-er !
hahahaha .
super funny .
well .
ii skipped SS today .
hahaha !
went to eat with Sharmeet darling !
hahaha .
ii skipped dance too .
hahaha .
wooo .
okay anyways ,
ii love this song right here !
WOOO .
listen to it .
its in my playlist somewhere .
go slowly find .
:D
The meaning is below in the branket and in red:D

Ni Zong Shi Xin Tai Ruan, Xin Tai Ruan
(You're too soft-hearted, Soft-hearted)
Dou Zhe Yi Ge Ren Liu Lei Dao Tian Liang
(Crying all by yourself till the break of dawn.)
Ni Wu Yan Wu Hui,
(No matter what he does to you.)
De Ai Ze Na Ge Ren
(You still continue loving the him.)
Wo Zhi Dao Ni Gen Ben Mei Na Me Jian Qiang
(I know you ain't that strong.)

Ni Zong Shi Xin Tai Ruan, Xin Tai Ruan
(You're too soft-hearted, Soft-hearted)
Ba Sou You Wen Ti Dou Zi Ji Kang
(You take everything into your own hands)
Xiang Ai Zong Shi Jian Dan
(Thinking love is simple,)
Xiang Cu Tai Nan
(Ended up being soo complicated.)
Bu Shi Ni De Jiu Bie Zai Mian Qiang
(Since its not yours, Stop forcing.)

Ye Shen Le Ni Hai Bu Xiang Shui
(Its already dawn yet you're not asleep.)
Ni Hai Zai Xiang Zhe Ta Ma ?
(You're still thinking of him right?)
Ni Ze Yang Chi Qing Dao Di Lei Bu Lei
(Isn's your passion/love for him tired?)
Ming Zhi Ta Bu Hui Hui Lai An Wei
(knowing he won't be there to comfort you.)

Zi Bu Guo Xiang Hao Hao Ai Yi Ge Ren
(You want nothing except loving a person.)
Ke Xi Ta Wu Fa Gei Ni Man Fen
(What a pity he is unable to give you the perfect score.)
Duo Yi De Xi Sheng Ta Bu Dong Xin Teng
(Making sacrifices which he won't feel understand.)
Ni Ying Gai Bu Hui Zi Xiang Zuo Ge Hao Ren
(You should only not want to be a good person.)

Oh Suan Le Ba, Jiu Ze Yang Wang Le Ba
(Oh forget it , just forget it.)
Gai Fang Jiu Fang, Zai Xiang Ye Mei You Yong
(Time to let go,Let go. Thinking about it is of no use.)
Sha Sha Deng Dai, Ta Ye Bu Hui Hui Lai
(Silly waiting,He will never come back)
Ni Zong Gai Wei Zi Ji Xiang Xiang Wei Lai
(You ought to think of your own future)


PS : listen to one of Gabriel's cock story .
FUNNNYH .
kk , gabriel took our ez-link cards .
he described us as criminals .

Maria : Something Rapist
Avlyn : Homosexual (cause my Ez=link got a barbie doll face)
Gabriel : Robbber
Jeshaiah : Paedofile
Celine : Prostitude
Ashley : Drug Addict .

AHHHHHH !
super happy today .
met my mentor KINGKONGGG !
likee finally laaaa !
hahaha .
went church for lunch .
both of us ate BOTAK JONES .
hahaha !
walao !
damn blooody full you know ?!
hahaa .
and we din finish our foood .
haahha .
then ii wanted go home change .
then we talk talk then say wanna go shopping !
HAHAHA .
then we really went sial !
went to Kranji MRT station !
ahaha .
THIS FASHION !!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha .
wasnt a member so ii signed up on the spot !
SHIOK AH !
haha .
ii just realised also .
ii last time always no money cause spend on HIM .
now ii spend on myself and the girls !
hahah .
EFFING HAPPY LIKE FFFFF .
hahaha .
then went to sembawang .
chilled with Amelia, Jeshaiah, Joshua Marc and Michael for awhile .
hahaha .
SHIOK BODOH .
hahaha .
then went back home .
damn lazy walk soo took bus .
then saw Menglee, Pamela, Weiyu, Liyu !
hahha .
then talked to them for awhile .
hahhaa .
then go homeee .
wooo .
sian ahhh .
lazy to continue typing already .
wooooo !
gotta go .
bitch is back from work .
haha .
Ciaoooooooooooooo !

URGH .
loook you fucking bastard .
you win !
you ruined my life ENOUGH !
PLEASE II BEG YOU STOP IT !
GET OUT OF MY LIFE DUN EVER COME BACK !
PLEASE !
ii came online with the thought of being happy !
LESLIE IS COMING BACK .
ii was fucking DELIGHTED !
but when ii went to the other blogs ?
FUCKYOU LA K !?!!!?
SCREW YOU FOR SCREWING MY LIFE !
II EFFING GAVE YOU EVERY DAMN EFFING THING !
WAT DID II GET IN RETURN !!?!!!
NOTHNG EFFING GOOOD .
II EFFING HATE YOUR STUPID CHEEBYE GUTS YOU SON OF A BITCH !
JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE LA SERIOUSLY !
DUN COME AND ACT NICE TO ME ALL .
II SERIOUSLY DUNWAN IT !
YOU'RE JUST BEING A DAMN HYPOCRITE !
GO AND SUCK HER TITS ALREADY .
STOP COMING TO US .
YOU'RE RUINING THE DAMN BLOODY FWENSHIPS YOU SHITASS .
II DUNWAN TO LOSE THEM CAUSE OF A BLOODY FAGGOT LIKE YOU !
YOU'RE FREAKING NOTHING !
NOTHING TO ANY OF US !
YOU'RE SOMEONE THAT WILL COME AND GO .
WE'RE THE ONES GONNA BE TOGETHER .
SOOO EFF YOU AND EFFING LEAVE !
WE DUN APPRECIATE CHEEBYES LIKE YOU !
YOU SCREWED UP BASTARD .

DUN YOU DARE BREAK SOR ,

YOU SON OF A BITCH .

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

It's over
And I feel so alone
This is a sadness
I've never known
How did I let the sweetest of dreams slip away
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay
Promises made, not meant to be broken
From a long time ago
so many words still unspoken
Tell me how was I to know that we'll break up ?
It's over
Never thought it would be
Why in the world did this happen to me
How could I let
The sweetest of dreams slip away
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay
I go round and round and round in my head
Wanting to take back
Whatever I said
No one was right
We all made mistakes
I'm ready to do whatever it takes
Please, Please, Please
Don't let it be...
Over!
No, this is not how it ends
I need my sisters, my family, my friends
Don't wanna let the sweetest of dreams slip away

JESHAIAH !
here is the post you wanted me to write for you .
happpy ?
haha .
ii got nothing to write about you laa .
AHYO .

Say farewell to the dark night...I see the coming of the sun...
I feel like a little child..whose life has jus begun...
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line...just in the Nick of Tiimmmeeee.....

One...your like a dream come true
Two... jus wanna be with you
Three... girl its plain to see..that your the only one for me..girl and...
Four...repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done....then I start Back at One.

Heart-Breaker):

went to cat class today .
Angel commented me at the same time humilated me .
before cat class ,
amelia messaged me asking me skip class all .
but ii couldnt .
cause ii was already in church .
then during class ii was messaging her and all .
till ii got a damn freaking scary message from her !
soo ii talked to Angel and went out to find her .
that girl ahhhh .
ii wun go into details my readers !
hahaa .
then gian and joshua all came .
couldnt call jeshaiah as he was with someone else .
soooo yeah .
then ii din go for the rest of cat class .
then after that go lepak all .
then ,
jeshaiah & joshua marc sparr .
bradley & trevor sparr .
gian & nigel sparr .
hahaha !
idiots .
OH OH !
ii finally talked to my dear bestie JOSEPH !
hahaha .
ii effing love that dumbasss laa .
we talked soooooo much .
ii was really happy ii talked to him laa .
as in SERIOUSLY .
and ii got to tell and be told stuff ii never thought ii would really tell JOSEPH .
hahhaa .
in short : he rocks and ii loveeeeeeeeeee him !
okay okay .
then waited for amelia to come meet us after eating with her family .
amelia is a damn nice girl ii tell you !
ahhaha .
she rocksss laa !
BOYS JUST SUCK !

I NEED A DAMN JOB BADLY !!
as all of us are eager to have that long awaited chalet !
woo .
hopefully ii will get lexine's fwen benedict to book through his father for us .
probably at Aloha , Changi ?
HAHA .
wooo .
omg ,
ii am already soo damn excited .
TSKTSK .

ANYWAYS ,
ii just learnt something from watching Ugly Betty .
okays ii shall tell the damn story cause ii am effing bored .
HAHA .
okay okay here it goes ,
Betty's boyfwen Henry is supposed to go away in 3 weeeks .
and he got his EX-Girlfwen Charlie pregnant .
so Charlie has been trying to get in between Betty & Henry .
and Henry asks Betty to make fwens with Charlie .
and Betty throws a party for Charlie hoping they will be fwens .
but noo ,
Charlie screws it up .
and when Betty has the courage to scold Charlie back ,
Charlie's waterbag BURSTS !
and then Charlie gives birth in Betty's living rooom .
but Charlie tells Betty something which makes her feel really guilty for being Henry .
OOPS , II FORGOT .
hahhaa !
spastic .
anyways ,
watching THE KID now on Disney Channel .
and playing my TETRIS ONLINE :D
hahaha !

II LOVE LESLIE JUDE FERNANDEZ !
YOU COME BACK NOW YOU FOOOOOL !

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SISTERR !
get ready for wat you dear boyfwen has done for you tomorrow !
ya'll lasting damn long bodoh !
WAHH .
almost freaking 7 years ?!
HAHA .
go get married laa !
clowns .
Joel can drive us around :D
SOOO HAPPPY !
hahha .

btw ,
now ii just wanna scream my effing lungs out laaaaa .
ii've been wanting to smoke since just now but my dad is still awake !
and the time now is already 3.30AM !
hahaha .
sian bodoh !
cant really sleep ?
hahaha .
and noo ,
ii dunwan scream cause ii cant smoke .
cause ii am effing pissed off with every damn thing laa !
URGH !
anyways ,
lessy helped me to download songs and all .
then put into my imeem playlist all .
OH MY ,
SHE IS CERTAINLY LOVELOVELOVE :D
and we haven met laaaaa !
goooodnesss .
that woman ahh ,
jio her out take a million years to get ready de .
dilly-dally !
AHYOYO .
btw lesssy ,
ii envy you .

ANYWAYS ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAT BROTHER :D
II LOVE YOUUU EFFING LOADS !
YOU ROCKKK :D

PICTURES FROM FRIDAY :


FOOLS .

girls ?


SHE'S THE MAN .


touchy-touchy !

STARTIINGG .....

SLOWING DOWN .

NOW SHE'S ENJOYING IT !
YUCKKKS .




SHE'S HOT !





EEEW. WHITE ARMPIT.

Chiquitita,
tell me what's wrong
you're enchained by
your own sorrowin your eyes
there is no hope for tomorrow
how I hate to see you like this
there is no way you can deny it
I can see that you're
oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita,
tell me the truth
I'm a shoulder you can cry on
your best friend
I'm the one you must rely on
you were always sure of yourself
now I see you've broken a feather
I hope we can
patch it up together

Chiquitita
you and I know
how the heartaches
come and they go
and the scars they're leavin'
you'll be dancin' once again
and the pain will end
you will have no time for grievin'
Chiquitita
you and I cry
but the sun is still in the sky
and shining above you
let me hear you sing once more
like you did before
sing a new song
Chiquitita
try once more
like you did before
sing a new song
Chiquitita

So the walls came tumblin' down
and your love's a blown out candle
all is gone and it seems
too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
there is no way you can deny it
I see that you're
oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita
you and I know
how the heartaches
come and they go
and the scars they're leavin'
you'll be dancin' once again
and the pain will end
you will have no time for grievin'
Chiquitita
you and I cry
but the sun is still in the sky
and shining above you
let me hear you sing once more
like you did before
sing a new song
Chiquitita
try once more
like you did before
sing a new song
Chiquitita

THIS IS TO SOR♥ !
MAMMA MIA ROCKS "D

OMG .
2 damn days with kristel in a row !
HAHA .
ii shall update the pictures sooon .
hahaha .
cat class was kinda fun .
the skit laaa !
hahah !
kristel suddenly fall on the floor all .
hahaha !
shall NOT elaborate .
haha .
lazyyyy .
anwyays ,
after cat class ,
gian called .
ask me faster rush down amanda's block .
he got problem with christo , AGAIN .
hahha .
damn stupid laa .
gian was effing pissed .
had to freaking block him how many damn times .
but he managed to hit christo twice .
pooor fellow !
cry all you know .
damn pooor thing laa !
blame my short hands .
but lucky gian never hit me laa .
cause ii was like fucking pushing him away half the damn time .
then kelvin like a damn typical ahhbeng .
hahaha .
lucky kelvin not like gian laa .
and joshua was "in charge" of kelvin .
HAHA .
ii got the bigger , angrier buffalo to handle .
how contradicting .
then doshie and kristel attended masss .
kelvin and joseph went SWENSENS ii think .
then left me joshua marc gian tuulang & geneva .
hahaha .
then after a while slack ,
gian tuulang and geneva left .
haha .
then only me and joshua marc .
hahha .
then waited for doshie and kristel to have dinner .
forgot about pooor ashley !
hahaha .
then after went soccer court ,
saw my primary school fwens ,
FARHAN & HAFIZ !
omg , ii love them !
they rock laa .
seriously !
hahaha .
anyways ,
ii lepak-ed with them .
go buy rokok all .
hahha .
thats about it .
hahaa .
alrights ,
gonna continue playing my tetris game now !
peace out ya'lll !
"D

cat class was retarded !
hahaa .
but it was fun and ii kinda enjoyed the people :D
but alan said if ii dun shut up the next time ,
we gonna get seperated !
thats damn sad yoo !
hahaha .
geneva and me laaa !
frigging noisy know !
hahaa .
and its only 2 of us !
hahaa .
damn cacat !
hahahaa .
then after that we went live bands .
haha .
augustine was there .
then he was going back so we decided go for a fagg .
then started taking pictures all .
HE CANT SMILE FOR NUTS !
ahahaha .
AND ,
II WEBCAM-ED WITH LESLIE !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
ii love that faggot like fcuking more then gian !
HAHA .
wooo !
ii miss him sooo damn effing much laaaa !
BOOOO .
COME BACK YOU FOOOL .
at least ii wouldnt feeeeel soooo alone .
you and your long hair .
HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE YOU LEFT ?!
IT FEEELS LIKE FOREVER !
DAMMMMIT .
(ii think ii love you, is that even possible?!)
to maria,
ii wouldnt trade any of ya'll too.
and,
you freaking made me shed a tear to your damn post!
ii love you babe:)

MYGOSH .
damn sway laa .
ii hate my periods !
its fcuking annoying !
maths paper 1 and ss FCKUED UP !
ii swear !
ss ii couldnt finish in time laa !
DAMN FED UP BALLS .
urgh !
gotta go study already .
maria waiting for meee !
anyways ,
changed my fwenster and blog abit .
ENJOYYY (:

*Remember ,
we fought to be together ,
those tears ,
bloood shed ,
hugs & kisses ,
fights & quarrels ,
MAKE-UPS & dedicated songs will be remembered
now that we've seperated ,
takecare .

went out with the WHOLE Nonis family today .
without gabriel though .
haha .
supposed to go play bowling !
ended up playing arcade .
which ii ended up taking care of theresa !
hahaha .
she ah !
damn naughty ehh !
hahah .
but ii managed to carry her till my arms almost fell out .
then the younger kids came back from swimming .
hahha .
HOROSCOPEEEE :D
Your positive attitude will enable you to satisfy your need to be socially useful.
AND DESIREE ,
dun being too much !
Maria is meeting ME:D

CONGRATULATIONS !!
to MAYLING & WEIQIANG !
ii dunno they are my wat in chinese .
hahha .
yesterday go their house for the tea ceremony .
OMG .
the pig is damn super blooody BIG !
we all stare the the pig damn one kind lorr .
hahahaha .
damn funny sial .
then after the tea ceremony we go aunty jovina's house !
hahah .
go there slack .
used the massage chair :D
shiok bodoh !
then at night go the wedding dinner .
haha .
sean ate my shark's fin for me .
haha .
apparently ahh boyy doesnt eat shark's fin too !
how cool .
hahah .
anyways ,
desiree !
hope you enjoyedd yeahhh !
haha .
the impromptu mini cake and the huge sunflower you wanted !
hahaha .
to the soccer court for that yeah ?
hahahaha .
wat a place .

this is my horoscope anyways : AQUARIUS
Trustworthy.
Attractive.
Great kisser.
One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships.
Can be clumsy at times but tries hard.
Will take on any project.
Proud of themselves in whatever they do.
Messy, and unorganized.
Procrastinators.
Great lovers, when their not sleeping.
Extreme thinkers.
Loves their pets usually more then their family.
Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story.
Unpredictable.
Will exceed your expectations.
Not a Fighter,
But will Knock your lights out.

anyways ,

yesterday ii cried my eyeballs out .

walked around my area alone .

tsktsk .

he said : ii really fucking love her .

that made me sooo effing sad .

well .

wat do ii have to say ?

she's one lucky bitch yeah ?

hmmm .

ii really dunno wat ii see in him anyways .

he doesnt study , he fights , smokes and etc.

tsktsk .

ii love bad boys huh ?

haix .

ii miss him sooo damn much .

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

edited'
just heard something which ii wanna know but hurt sooo effing much .
ii fear ii might lose my life .

totally lost it in school today .
couldnt stop the tears from flowing .
lucky noo one saw .
oh well .
its 2 more days to doshie's birthday .
hope you love it girl .
love ya all (:
PS : kelvin and eileen patched back .
sooo happy for them yet jealous .
tsk .
GOD BLESS YOU 2 !
loveeee always my lesybian .

today went sandy's place .
haha .
soo long haven see that woman .
talked about some stuff .
haha .
certainly had a good laugh .
haha .
AND , ii haven been studying these few days .
urgh .
totally need to start studying like crap laa .
and desiree's birthday is like in 4 days ?!
woooo .
damn crap laaaaa .
AND THE FCUKING BICTH JUST SIGNED IN !!
YUCKS .
II HATE HERRRR !!!!
URGHHH .

*lesybian,
ii hate her.
urgh.
she purposely do that de lorr!

yesterday was simply LOVE !
as in seriously after breaking up with him .
as in it was the best day of my entire life !
hahhaa .
went fer the rite of election all .
desiree and geneva went up to testify for maria and dave .
maria cried !
hahaha .
it was from all of us to them .
WOO !
maria rocks !
ahhaa .
then went to alameen eat with clique .
damn nice !
after that we went behind woodgrove .
and the best part ,
THE WHOLE SOR WAS THERE !
NO ONE WAS MISSING !
OMG !
it was soooo unbelievable !
gooooodnesss .
then after that camwhore with them .
did stupid things like dance !
hahaha .
then maria video me .
GOOODNESSS .
the video will make you laugh you ASSSS offf !
literally !
hahahaha .
well .
its me !
cant help it .
ahhahhaa .
anyways after that ,
parents fetched me .
go ARLANDO'S house !
haha .
too bad lala wasnt there .
haha .
gooodnesss .
THANK GOD FOR YESTERDAY !
II LOVE YOU GOD !
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

PS : pictures another day :D
anything click on tuulang picture to go her blog and see the pictures !

WOO !
today was simply fun and laughter laa please !
supposed to study in church but noooo !
helped 2nd mother coook for ALPHA !
haha .
me and maria helped (:
haha .
then went back to study for like awhile but couldnt concentrate with the noise !
boo !
haha .
then left our baggys at church .
WILDBOAR , TUULANG , DOSHIE , KINGKONG & ME ,
set offff to the AMERICAN HOUSES .
OMG !
ii miss that place .
sooo many damn memories there laaaa .
ii miss gian):
hahaa !
then we walked around then ended up at behind woodgrove .
laughed our asses off laa .
and yes , we are mean .
making fun of ppl all .
haha !
wooo .
then camwhore all .
wooo !
then if ii'm ugly then so are you , SO ARE YOU .

HAHA .
wooo .
ii was soooo lazy to upload my own pictures just now ii asked my dear lesbiannn help !
and she did !
goooodnesss ii love her .
HAHA .
wooo !
omg .
ii should be sleeping now .
TIRED .
ii love her !
WOOO
( my lesbiannn of course ) !
hahaha .
tomorrow studying at 2pm with maria .
sure 2 plus then start .
HAHA .

PS : SATURDAY CAT CLASS IS AT 3-7PM !
DUN BE LATE !

Easter 06' 12 floor , 328 - 6am .

girl power .

































you guys stop the tears which he caused from coming down .
thanks a whole loads guys (=
PS : Eileeen my lesbian , we gotta work hard to stop the tears .
they got over us .
its time we got over them .
moving on aint gonna be easy .
yeah we will always love them .
but hey , we'll secretly continue loving them ?
then maybe , just maybe it will be better .
one step at a time (:

ii did have fun in the morning .
ii mean yesterday morning ?
tsktsk .
now ii am back to being fucked up .
tsk .
hate life .

lunched with darlings : menglee , pam , liyu & weiyu today.
hahaha .
talked to pamela about ghost and all .
ahahahha !!
cacat much :D
after that kelvin called say he saw us .
the he going bugis then going marsiling .
then ii was going to dom house soo ii and him walk together to there .
ahahaha .
AND OMG !!!!
hahahahaha .
ii cut iskandar's hair today !!
HAHAHA .
it was damn funny .
it turned out okay ?!
HAHAHA !!!
oh my gosh damn hilarious laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!
hahahahha .
anyways , tomorrow is the dance .
ii hope they ROCK !
hahah .
ii will always love yaaaaaaa'll !
another dance perhaps ?!
HAHAHA .
coool ?
hahaha .
woooo .
sorry damn mentally unstable now .
ahahha .
DOMINIC DOESNT MAKE NICE MILO .
HE IS GONNA KILL SOMEONE BECAUSE HE PUT TOOOO MUCH CONDENSED MILK !
MUHAHAHAHA !!!

PS : sorrry my darling eileeen !
din meet you today .
next time , CONIFIRM HUNDRED PERCENT PLUS STAMP MEET DE !
II LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU !! (: ♥

you be nice ii will be nice .
ii wanted to say good luck being together .
then both of you come scold me ?
obviously ii flared up too .
hmm .
ANYWAYS ,
TONGUE/BELLY PIERCING TOMORROW . ( HOPEFULLY SIVAN BRINGS MY SPEAR!)
ii cant wait ! (:
and woooo !
just came home .
from having beancurd with desiree (:
then walked her home .
lepak under block fer a while .
then when ii was walking home .
went court .
saw junhong , his sis and gary there .
WALAO !!
played basketball with them .
haha .
ii am getting goood at it .
ahahha .
WOOO !
damn tired now .
shall blog another day .
LOVE !!
PS : ii love eileeen (:
Perhaps happiness is just a big white lie,
And tragedies are meant to happen in reality.
Dreams and passions are supposed to die,
The word to describe it is fatality.
When everything goes the other way around,
And there is absolutely no turning back.
When everything you ever imagined drowns,
And the entire world turns to nothing but black.
Then i realize what's left to love,
Is everything i never had to try.
A little something like a dove,
In deep thought it'll make you cry.
done by : DESIREE SHANI NONIS
ii am a fighter baby .

WOO .
finally got my damn internet back !
hahaa .
have been practising fer 2 days straight !
damn tiring .
hahha .
OH YA .
yesterday went to TTSH .
see dom's mummy .
she's sick ):
hope she gets well soon though !
hmm .
shall post my late australian pictures another day .
damn tired .
going to practice again later .
AUDITION IS LIKE TOMORROW ?!
and the boys still kinda suck .
cause all they have been doing was looking at us shake our asses !
aahahhaa .
IN THE AYER , BOLE CHUDIYAN & THAT THING YOU DO .
hahhaa .
wooo .
shall not blog soo much .
enjoy pictures ! (:

JJ & ME ! > seaxyy people !

JJ , DOMINIC , AVLYN & ISKANDAR !
WE ROOOOOOOCK <3
HEHE :D

BILLY BOMBERS ; FULL-HOUSE BURGER !
which my fat brother finished .

TTSH : me iskandar and jason .

TAO & 2ND TAO

hahha lame !

dun be shy joey !

hahaha . hairstylistS ?


look at pamela in the back !

SHERMIT !

HuaJing , Fauzi , Timothy & Izwan(ii think) - MATRAPS .

HAHA !

BAYLA ! BABY FREEZE LA BODOH !

HAHA . FALL DOWN ! ( me bayla freaka !)

presenting :
MY SISTER , THE BROTHER (TAO) & IT .
hmmm .
today stayed back fer chemistry .
haha .
it did help .
haha .
ii am sooo supposed to be studying .
but have been at the computer .
tomorrow got stupid F&N AND COMBINED SCIENCE PAPER !
anyways .
unexpectedly ,
ii stayed back to help in the art room !
hahaha .
helped fauzi paint his work .
he's horrible laa .
hahaha !
anyways ii wanna take art sial !
like damn fun only .
hahaa .
woooo .
then after their lesson ended .
we stayed back to talk to ESTEE LIM .
ahaha .
she dunwan take me as art student .
BOOO .
hhhaa .
anyways .
we gossiped and told stories balls .
ahahah .
kinda fun .
hahaha .
wooo .
shall go sleep sooon .
sneeezing like hell .
haha .
PS : II LOVE TREVOR (:

today had the wake .
then had prayers .
yeaps .
damn weird laa .
we kept laughing .
so not serious .
hahaa .
then des went too .
ahhaha .
damn retarded .
WOOO .
currently at desiree's crib .
ahaha .
JEREMY is stupid .
SHERMAN is smiling .
DANNY is stoning at his computer .
SEAN is topless .
FRANK is topless .
GABRIEL is topless .
they suddenly came into the house like that laa .
GROSS .
and des cant stand someone's phone .
as it looks like a calculator .
she thinks its jeremy's .
ii aint gonna bother finding out who's it is anyways .
HAHA .
wooo .
bored .
bye

hmm .
went to east coast today to slack .
nothing much happened laa .
so yeah .
hmmm .
my grand uncle passed away .
haix .
damn effing sad now .
going novena then the wake tomorrow .
mum says ii wun be able to recongise him .
he's skinny and all .
tsk .
he used to be soo tall .
now ?
he's about my size and weight .
damn heartbreaking la .
haix .
well .
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM !
PLEASE !

HAPPPY CONFIRMATION JJ !
hahaha !
doshie ii guessed it right .
its JASON JEREMY !
HAHAA .
sadly pereras din come .
ahhaha !
had fun today .
but something happened which was liek shocking .
and no ,
ii am not saying it .
BTW ,
II DIN TAKE PIC WITH DOM !
sad laa !
walao .
boohoo .
ahhaa .
took with "ADILAH" instead .
haha .
he damn FLASHER .
gross much .
hahaha .
yesterday was fun too .
at FOP .
hahaha .
weird but nice .
ahhaa .
the parachute guy sing damn effing nice balls !
ahahhaa .
woooo .
anyways .
messaging dom now .
BYEEE :D

ii love this song .
ii gonna chnage to my blog song SOON .
haha .
WOOOOTS .

Tila Tequila - Fuck Ya Man

Oh my god! Bo, why do these girls think like,
I wanna fuck their boyfriends?
That is like soo not true. Their boyfriends like,
wanna fuck me, like oh my god!
I know I'm hot and all but like, that is soo wrong.
You know? So like I'm not, I'm not...

VERSE 1:
I ain't trying to fuck ya man
Errbody know he my number 1 fan
I done been there done that, bitch and?
you wanna get mad bitch, I don't give a damn
This is how it do, you is how it don't
Talkin all this shit but you know you really won't
Feelin insecure when I come around the spot
Tila get it crunk so I drop it like it's hot
I see you in the corner grilling me for over there
Cuz you know your boo like to hit me straight rare
Nuttin' up inside while he pullin' on my hair
Hate it or love it, the underdog's right there

Chorus:
I ain't trying to fuck ya man
Errbody know he my numba 1 fan
I done been there done that bitch and
You wanna get mad bitch, I don't give a damn
(x2)

Verse 2:
I ain't tryin' to fuck ya man
lookin' at my myspace lotion in his hand
when he look at you he be thinkin' 'bout me
take your benz back bitch, now I got the key
Flossin' round the city errbody know my name
Yea I got yo man whipped, bitch with no game
Sucka ass fool, I don't wanna wear ya chain
I got my own diamonds spelled out in my name
See he the type of dude that me and my girls laugh at
Trying to holla at me, nah he can't have that
Need to quit talkin' like a bitch before I slap that
Even if I pop some pills I wouldn't tap that

Chorus:
I ain't trying to fuck ya man
Errbody know he my numba 1 fan
I done been there done that bitch and?
You wanna get mad bitch, I don't give a damn
(x2)

Verse 3:
Bitch, I got a suggestion
Get ya ass out of my face, don't ask no question
I'm from H-Town fool, you know what it do
We be sippin on some syrup and spray up ya crew
I don't know why you think I wanna rape ya boo
but then again if I was you, I would hate me too
I'm a badass bitch and ya'll can't get nuthin'
Ya'll need to tell ya boy sumthin'.....biaaatch!
Chorus:
I ain't trying to fuck ya man
Errbody know he my numba 1 fan
I done been there done that bitch and?
You wanna get mad bitch, I don't give a damn
(x2)

ii sing this with a smile on my face .
when ii see her hugging you .
bitch ,
ii've been there .
ii've done that .
WOO .

II LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TODAY .
hahaha .
lunch-ed with desiree , danny and desmond ng .
it felt weird .
hahahaa .
desmond come to the library only no one can study sial !
walao .
hahhaha .
then go eat .
finally after much arguement and walking ,
we ended up at Long John's Silver .
hahahaha .
damn cacat ii know .
ahahha .
then went to des house .
desmond ng kept making the babay cry laaa .
damn funny sial .
haahha .
then we started drawing on the walls all .
hahaha .
then went cat class .
it was a Youth Mass .
conducted by Father Terrence and Hidden Treasures .
haahaha .
the sec 2s we annoying as usual .
ahhaha .
OH YEAH .
II MADE A SONG .
which is damn stupid .
dunno why ii got high also .
hahahaha .
it goes something like :
She has a moley moley moley .
and he has no dicky dicky dicky .
she has fake booby bobby boobies .
he has no brainy brainy brainy .
HAHAHA .
okays lame .
anyways .
aftter the mass thingy which ended early we went alameen to eat .
haha .
brother angelyn and some other girl came .
hahha .
we were damn noisy all laa .
then we pray before eating all .
wahhh .
everyone looked at us sial !
ahahhaa .
it was hilarious .
ahaha .
damn nice though .
then went to live bands .
WE ROCKED THE STAGE YA'LL !
wooo .
hahaha .
no one really did try and beat us .
ahahha .
cause no one could .
okays self praise there but TRUE !
hahhaa .
anywayys .
des is at my place now .
but she's fast asleeep .
aahahhaa .
gonna sleep too .
going Saint Anne's feast day tomorrow .
soo must wake up damn early laaa .
wahhhh .
haha .
GOOODNIGHTTT !
ii'm moving on (:

SOOO BORED .
haha .
and tired .
and JJ , is irritating .
ahahahhaahhaahahhaa .
no offence yo !
hahaha .
anyways ii kinda enjoyed today .
haha .
dunno why ii keep typing haha also .
hmmm .
oh well .
lazy to upload picstures today .
hahahha .
anyways , tomorrow got the mass thingy !
ahahha .
damn long sial .
wahhhh .
hahaha .
laughing off the pain inside ):
yer're lost in my heart .
the stinging memories hold on tightly ,
just get lost already will yer ?

well .
all thnaks to pamela ii get to upload all my handphone pictures into my com .
which means ii finally get to show them off !
hahaha .
oh well .
more to come sooon .
this are my special ppl .
next post , australia and school loves .
haha .
fer now , ENJOY !

gabriel tuulang me maria on the way to lavender .
ahahaha .

children's camp FACILITATORS ROCK !

the special clique .

STEAMBOAT LOVE !

STEAMBOAT FOOOD !

my heels were killing me so ii sat down .
this ppl ? ^^ STEP ONLY .
hahahhaha .

awwww .

once again (:

black and white .

the girls (:

girls night out . BLAST !

okays spastic toilet pic .

tuulang and me ! love (:

me and ester ii think .

me and luanna on last day of camp ):

children's camp ! BENJAMIN !!!!!

this was so candid thanks to tuulang .

ahaha . ii cut myself out of the pic so dumb .

in the mrt to clarke quay .

me and the foster babay !

emo ? hahaha .

the chinese blood and indian blood stepped in !
HAHA .

a night out with my girls (:

wanted to see how ii looked after walking so many hours at Clarke Quay on HEELS .

haha . snap XP

ii was bored when ii got back .

and this is my blog (:
yer raise me up .

well .
ii know ii am gonna be blamed fer everything .
ii always do .
just wanna say ii still love yer guys if yer guys care .
thats all .
back to my emo-ness .
yer make me cry , EVERYNIGHT .
ii hope it makes yer feel better .

WOO .
haha .
BBQ was great !
hahaa .
BUT , ii got boxed in the eye by DESIREE .
and , scratched in the face by MARIA .
hahaha .
tuulang waas the only one who din attack me .
ahhahaha .
and alot of things happened at the bbq laaa .
hahaha .
shall not name any .
hahhaha .
they dint really give me any cup to drink chivas laa .
soo ii shared with dom (:
hahaha .
tuulang they all went home kinda early .
the come late go home early .
hahaha .
THE MASS WAS DAMN FUNNY RIGHT !
hahahahahhahaha !!!!!!
SEPAKKK .
hahha .
ii dunno to to spell .
hahahaahhaha .
and we finally went to east coast .
by the beach .
its was nice .
me maria michelle and des .
we were like drinking by the beach .
or at least ii was .
haha .
beeeer only .
soo boring and yuck .
hahaha .
but wat the heck .
really enjoyed it .
all thanks to FABIAN !
wooooo .
happy birthday by the way , AH PUI !
hahahha :D
time will tame my wounds .

ME PAMELA AND MENGLEE :D
ii love goofing around and taking pics !
hahhaa .
OHH .
haha .
ii was soo bored today after meeting joshua (:
hahaha .
he damn bum laa .
we spooilt like 2 lighters .
HAHA .
came home and actually watched michael jackson !
haha .
THRILLLEERRRR !
hahaaha .
then started blasting music .
WEEE .
oh well .
cant wait fer the bbq tomorrow .
weeeeeeeeeee .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FABIANN ! (PUIPUI) .
HAHAHAA .
okays shall not disturb yer already .
after ii kena whack again .
hahhhhaa .
PAIN LA !
hahaha .
oh well .
bored now .
shall go to my roooom !
woooo .

URGH .
ii am getting so damn pissed and stressed out in life .
ii am nothing to blog though so many events and things have happened .
this is just bullshit.
just gonna wait fer friday to let it all out !
yer piss me off .
SHE'S A SLUT !

WOOOHOOO .
here ii am blogging again .
at a weird timing .
cant seem to sleep nowadays ..
hmmm .
clarke quay with my girls was fun :D
hahhaa .
love ya'll man !
haha .
and maria :
WE SHALL WORK HARD FER THAT HOUSE !
yes we shall .
ii cant wait actually .
hahaha .
tuulang with her license also .
wahh shiok balls .
hahaa .
we shall make her drive us all around .
YEAH !
hahaha .
anyways .
ii cant wait to see the rest again .
des : sorry ii cant be there fer yer phycially !
but ii shall be cheering yer on from where ii am .
ROCK ON !
WOOOOHOOO YOU CAN DO IT !!!!!
hahha .
pictures shall be uploaded sooon .
loveloves !

(01) What is my full name?
avlyn athalia-ann iseral

(02) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
hawaii with my girls .

(03) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
swimming , hanging out with my girlfwens .

(04) Do you think money can buy happiness?
noo . ii know because my clique and me always have no money or it'll go to food .
HAHA .

(05) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
to forget the past and move on with life and be with my girlfwens .

(06) Do you believe you can survive without money?
noo . because this world is all about money . they dun care about anything else !
TSKTSK .

(07) How's the feeling when your best friend backstabbed you.
its not nice at all . but ii did it once fer a boy before .
II REGRET !

(08) Have you ever been to the toilet of the opposite gender?
yes ! hahaha . church cleaning laaa .

(09) What do you dream of doing in the future?
to have a career , fwens and a hubby .
HAHA .

(10)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.I stunned at the question la..
ERRR ?!!!!?!??!?
funny , flirtatious and retarded .

(11) What makes you happy?
GOD and my girls . cause the girls do the stupidest of things with me which is damn funny !!

(12) What type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers , yer can be a person without some responsibility but dun push it !

(13) Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
in a pub drinking my life away knowing my career is on a smooth track .

(14) When someone says "Can i have your number?"
ii will be like hmmm . okays ?
and to someone ii know only !

(15) Who is the most important person in your life?
GOD , maria , michelle , desiree , geneva and SIGH (gian)

(16) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my studies and prayers . WOOHOO . (ii'm a changed person)

(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
my terrible past .

(18) What does forever mean to you ?
it doesnt exist to me anymore .

(19) Are you strong enough to take up all your emotions & burden by yourself?
ii thought ii was but ii am soooo NOT .

(20) Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
my heart . ii will always follow my heart (:

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above & add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 10 people in your list & list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1: Desiree
2: Maria
3: Michelle
4: Dave
5: Leslie
6: Sylvia
7: Sherylynn
8: Pamela
9: Karine
10: Wei Yu

PS : bernard told me this story about a woman .
she's still alive :D


so this happy couple was together for many years.
the BF had eyes that can see the dead.
the GF was afraid at first.
but soon, as her BF told her wonderful things about having this gift, she enjoyed being with him more.
it gives her this thrill to know things around her.
whether good or bad.
when she's afraid she'll hug him.
but one day.
they met with an accident.
as he was dying,
the BF passed his eyes to her, so she could see.
she did inherit his eyes.
but because she tried so hard to find the BF that passed away.
she couldnt see the marvelous gift and wonders her BF gave her.
her life faded away.

lesson learnt : dun look at the same person only .

HAHA .
omg .
yesterday was damn bloody funny laa .
gian anyhow only !
ii asked him to buy dinner fer me .
then ii chnaged my mind .
and ii said ii din wan the fried rice anymore .
soo ii went to order indian rojak .
hahaha !
then when ii came back ,
gian was like : EH WHY YOU BUY THAT ?
then ii was like : huh ? ii not eating fried rice anymore .
gian : WAT ?! ii bought fer you lehs !
avlyn : WAT ?! WHY ! II SAID II DUNWAN !!!
gian : omg then how ?!
then , the foood came .
HAHA .
damn hilarious .
lucky des was there to help eat the indian rojak and all .
hahahha .
hmmm .
omg ii love des !
hahaha .
camwhoring .
woooohooo .
cat class was kinda fun .
UNEXPECTEDLY :
JAPHETH , GENEVA , KRISTEL , ASHLEY AND DANIEL !
they won nicholas michael laaa !
HAHHA .
he damn pissed offf laa .
hahaha .
hmmmm .
oh well .
we rock .
hahaha .
and massed today .
woooohooo .
damn hectic man .
hmmm .
shall not go into details though .
ahhaha .
shall upload pics soon .
but ii got one now which is just LOVE .
PS : ISAAC CLOSE YER MOUTH AND LOOK IN FRONT NOW .

OMG GOOOOD NEWS !!!
hahahha .
kelvin , dave and geneva are all reviving from the dead !
hahaha .
they can meet us on weekdays now .
how happy ii am .
hahhaa .
ii lose one ii gain soo many ?
WAHHH .
hahaha .
why cant everything be my way .
BOOHOO .
ahaha .
well .
SOR MEANS MORE TO ME .
hahaha .
today go beach .
damn cacat cann .
damn bloody hot then go mac eat .
HAHA .
then go causeway point walk walk .
WALAO .
buy alot of things sial .
HAHA .
thanks ahh dom !
BUM .
hahhaha .
nonsense .
best fwens ?
hahah .
yeaps .
woooohooo .
love giant !

PS : SORRY PAM .
II SHOULD HAVE TOLD YER EARLIER .
SORRY .

CHILDREN'S CAMP WAS A BLAST .
the kids were GREAT .
ii love them sooo much .
haha .
took a pic with luanna and ester !
DARLINGS !!
haha .
exhausting somemore .
hmmmm .
but we did it .
and ii thank God fer being there fer us .

**only GOD will be here fer me .
HE shall help me put the past behind .
HE is my saviour .
& after the sec3 camp .
ii've grown closer to GOD and ii am LOVING it !
and ii have chnaged ever since .
GOD will always be here fer me .
ii love gian .
ii love GOD MORE !!
wooohooo .

hmm .
firstly ii wanna say that ii dun regret going australia !!
haha .
but it was sad to leave camp !!
and ii din treasure the opportunity given to me when ii was there .
and thanks angeline fer listening to me .
ii felt really light after telling you everything ?
haha .
ii haven smoked in like 7 days ?!
haha .

PERTH WAS AWESOME !!!
omg .
thanks chris and jenny !!
yer guys were great tour guides .
most credits go to jenny of course !
haha .
bought alot of damn sweeets laaa .hahha .
and my luggage was like damn effing heavy !
hahha .
but this trip ahh .
alot of bullshit especially last day .
haha .
overall it ROCKED !
OH YEAH !!
ii went to this school called MOUNT LAWLEY !
OH MY GOSH LAA .
we bonded like fcuk !
ii miss them laaa .
it was like wat ?
2-3 hours of togetherness and nobody could let go ?!
boo !
haha .
at least we'll keep in contact by email .
yeaps .
AVALON ; KATRINA & buddy DARCY !!!
hahha .
oh yeah .
ii fed a horse !
haha .
and alpakca !!
HAHA .
ii dunno how to spell .
hahaha .
then saw how wines were made .
then drank a few sips .
haha .
NICE !!!
then saw how they shave the sheeps .
hahaha .
managed to play poool also .
damn freaking funny laa !!
haha
and OMG .
the boys slept over our rooom on one night !
HAHAHA .
dun worry .
we all din do anything .
haha .
AUSTRALIA AIRPORTS :
in their toilets they sell CONDOMS !!!
hahhhaha .
damn cacat .
hmm .
ii dunno wat else to say .
hahaa .
OH YEAH .
WE WENT SANDBOARDING !!!
WOOOOHOOOOO .
ii loved it loads balls !
ii saw kangaroos tooo .
and even touched a baby kangaroo !

II LOVE THE SONG BEST OF ME - SUM 41 !!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOO .
ii will upload pics another day .
weee .

HAHA .
ii am off to com in a few hours time and australia .
hmmmm .
gonnna miss alot of people .
especially SOME .
hahaha .
hmmm .
ii aint that excited to go laaaaa .
gonna miss people .
booo .
it always happens .
hahhaa .
SOR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahhaa .
well .
at least ii will get to see ALL of them before ii leave .
hahaha .
thank god there's camp .
hahhaa .
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
but ii gonna miss out feast day and all laa .
damn .
hahha .
sian laaaaa .
walao .
hahaha .
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
gonnna sleeep soooon .
no smoking also fer me .
hahaah .
maybe its a goood thing ?
HAHA .
ahem ahem .
tired !
booo .
haaha .
got nothing to say le .
ahahha .

yer know wat pisses me off the most ?
yer ignoring me .
me shutting up .
me ignoring yer .
yer fucking me up .
TSK .
ii am soo sick and tired of being sad over yer .
yeah .
ii wanna give up !
yes ii do .
ii have my fwens .
ii dun need yer anymore .
maybe ii do , BUT ,
ONLY as my close fwen .
cause why ?
ii am loving yer but wat am ii getting in return ?
NOTHING .
oh wait .
not nothing .
its just nothing but EFFED UP ATTITUDE .
well .
ii just wan yer to know that since yer have a best fwen that is a ger .
ii can have a best fwen that is a boy .
and guess wat ?
even if there's more to us then fwens ,
its none of yer white ass business !
ii know ii am gonna regret this BUT ii deserve to smile .
well .
as much as ii dunwan to move on ii have to .
its hurting me way to deeply .
and yer're having fun with LISA .
tsk .
yeah .
guess we'll all just be FWENS .
tsk .
too pissed and sad to sad more things .
thanks maria .